MIDNIGHT
I envy the people sleeping in the room next mine
How do they sleep?
So much going on in my head.
When the home clock strike to sleeping time,
My brain is at full capacity
I hate nights,
A night is a bitch.
All the bad memories,
All of the sad moments,
Come surging like a tornado.
No, I can't cry
My pillow has had enough,
I'm tired of crying every night.
Instead I'm here writing nothing,
As if it gives me consolation.
Listening to the whistling of the wind,
The chirping of insects,
Twigs snapping,
It all sounds familiar,
My typical sleepless night.
I close my eyes to sleep
But I can't
I listen to rain sounds
But it makes me shiver and over think more,
I try to read
But I can't.
What's wrong with me?
I don't wanna talk to anyone
I don't wanna read
And i don't wanna speak.
I keep telling myself that I'm okay
But am I?
I keep hoping to sleep
But will I?
My mistakes,
My regrets,
My failures,
My life,
It's all so draining.
I'm afraid of opening up to people.
What if the judge me?
We all have our darkest secrets.
Turns out, the scars we can't see
Are the hardest to heal.
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